At some point along your journey I hope that someone has told you that your illness is not your fault but how much do you actually feel that?
Our brains are designed to analyse information and make meaning out of the chaos that is life. When something as big as chronic illness happens it’s very hard for the brain to compute that there isn’t something that we can do to control the situation so we turn it inwards.
We see this in trauma work time and time again. When an event is too big for the brain to process that’s when the narrative of self blame crops up. It is easier for us to blame ourselves than it is to accept that there is nothing that we can do to change the situation.